"He Gives and He takes away; Blessed be His name"
Today was our ultrasound that we have been waiting a month for, and we received news that we didn't want to hear. Our baby suffered fetal hydrops and her heart stopped beating. I have been induced for labor and am waiting to deliver our little one. For seventeen weeks, I have carried this life inside of me (even if I didn't know it the first few weeks, ha!)
I am keenly aware that this is infant loss and awareness month. Sometime over the next couple of days, we will experience a birth and a burial. It seems like such an oxymoron. As a family, we cried together today- all five of us. Our son who was added to our family only a little over a year ago, expressed his grief in words. It was such a huge moment for him- to allow himself to experience sadness instead of surpressing it. Our other two have asked a multitude of questions to which we have answered to the best of our abilities. We are grieving the LIFE of our daughter, Liliana Jane Pizzati (Lilly Jane). Although our hearts are broken, we can still declare that God is good. I pray that in our pain, His purpose will prevail.
Lord, haste the day when our faith shall be sight....
Our hearts may be broken, but It is well with our souls.
Thank you all for your fervent prayers on behalf of Lilly and for us. We will rest in His comfort and grace.
